I go about my life trying to stay connected with God as I accomplish my work. Every morning I begin with my meditation to align with my Higher Self and the tasks of the day. I seek to touch the spiritual aspect of all I do. And then on a rare occasion, I will find that the world and my job are not enough that day to distract me from my own soul.
And it is here that I feel myself. Every thought of every lifetime can be accessed in these moments. I am so aware of how my soul had been longing to perfect– longing to become awake to the truly vast Spiritual World of it’s origin.

My Soul. It is not Cindy– it is an ever incarnating aspect of God. Some lives, I am sure, have been easy– while others, I am sure, have been difficult. But when I feel my soul, I feel the deepest desire to become. And I feel very lonely in the process.

Everyone in my world plays a part in my evolution. And I love them each for their contributions. However, much of my life—MY LIFE– I have allowed to be governed by ideas and desires that were not mine. I had been sidetracked by my helpers.

In a Meditation recently, Mother God showed me the amount of space that my thoughts occupied.
“Others” was a large space– “me” was a small space
“Worry” was a large space - “love” was a small one
“Load” was a large space— “light” was a small one
Even though, I mediate on peace, love and light– when I open my eyes, my focus has gone to those around me, and not to myself. I have felt that I serve God by serving others. And that has kept me from me.

I now, feel deep within my soul, that I must find a way to serve that inner desire to become. I must find a way to share my light without losing my focus on it.
God has been a part of every moment of my last 20 years. But, I was not always looking at the God who loved Cindy. I was measuring my light by the amount I shared.
It is time to be me.

As Mother God showed me:
love, light, and peace are all sourced when the “me” of me is full.
It is my desire to know my own Soul– and as I do, I know that I will also see the souls of others much more clearly.